I.Rather..

During exam period, blogging is what that kept me awake. Comments kept me alive. You read it so I write it. I wrote it so you read it.

During holiday, there are too many things that occupy my life. Too many nothing. I'm not doing anything, not thinking of doing anything, not joining anything, yet not wanting to blog and rather, sleep.

Su is saying "new things aren't necessarily good".
Of course new things aren't necessarily good. Why are we wanting new things then? Maybe what we wanted are "good" new things. We are expecting the good. As I said, the more you know the more you get confused. You don't always get what you expected, so should we just live with it? Or keep trying to get what you wanted?

When we were young, we don't know anything. We see things in a different perspective, Jean Piaget said. (ehem..) What matters is when we know something and when it's not what we expected, we choose to avoid. I choose to avoid it and forget about it. I don't want to live with it. I want to go back to the beginning.

We moved in almost 9 months ago. There was nothing. It was clean, unoccupied. Just nothing. Then there were the shampoo, the domio stain, the leftover fried rice, the toilet rolls pyramid, the dust, the smell of life. And now it becomes nothing again. We shift, we move on, we change, we grow.

You have to know that girls are emo. Our mood change because of any tiny little things, and even after watching a drama.

It is complicated. I choose not to understand. This is random. It's just too random.