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i'm actually quite lazy to chat online nowadays, like really lazy, lazy. but yet, if you notice, you can see me appearing online after 8pm almost every night for the past few days, until i fell asleep. whether i really, "appear" on your msn list or just appearing offline. because i'm really really scared :( you know, when there isn't any other sound outside the door except the wind blow and the darkness is kinda scary too. omg ok, writing about this is very scary too. adli didn't get the hint why i appear online and why isit related to the reason i mention. i do feel like i'm using the people online to be my superman yet i'm very reluctant to even spend a 10 minutes chatting, even though i rather doze my brain off. omg.. not even 1 lecture per day and i have 3 midterm papers 1 week later. just the feeling of being "high profile" on msn secure me ;p but i really really am too lazy to chat. or talk. urgh.. i just feel bad but i still don't want to chat. like how i'll pray 3 times after killing a mosquito and then step on it more after praying.



just kidding. *pray pray pray*

anyways, sorry lar jie (jie sounds cooler! dajie sounds too girlnextdoor bluer).. i don't really know why is " why are u calling again" the start of my every conversation to you. eem, perhaps you can try calling me tmr afternoon and i'll spare 3 hours for you? come to think of it, i really don't know why i'm so bad-tempered when it comes to you who called. (you know luh, i'm always very sweet one right?<3)

p.s: maybe because i had some 童年阴影/deprived childhood. happy friday the 13th~ i hope you won't get the idea that i'm a maniac after reading this.

xoxo