I walked pass an empty bus stop on the way home and remember there was a saying : people who love you enjoy letting you being their burden, throwing your problems and any shitty feelings to them, because they want to share it, and make it less problematic for you.
But is it because I am not a good listener or this saying doesn't apply when I'm in a bad BAD mood? Because I'll scold you or simply ignore you when bad is really BAD. And perhaps I'm in a very BAD mood now, that's why I hate this 1.5cm thick orange skin, I hate the unpredictable dublin weather, I hate my battery low phone, I hate to talk, I hate to have tutorials tomorrow, I hate japanese class, I hate to wake up, I hate projects more and more and more; group projects, reports, group meeting, 30minutes useless group meeting, stayed back for 2hrs after lecturer waiting for the group meeting and was told that it's cancelled, or no news, no emails, no smses from any other group member, presentation, powerpoint, referencing, and microsoft!! Perhaps I'm not good at it, that's why I hate it; or maybe I hate it, that's why I'm never good at it. I think complaints are stupid so don't ever complain to me, because I'm not any smarter. But complaints don't do any good even though they are really good at releasing stress and anger.
-tofufa-
Few days ago, best friend B said go make a cup of milo and keep yourself warm. I made a cup of hot yam drink and imagine it was mm who made it for me, like how mmes did for us during those cold exam midnights. B said remember to smile when you drink and giggled when she imagined me doing that. I smiled. I don't want to fail my papers. B said your family will still love you no matter what you do. Will still love you. Best friend F said she wants to go home too. I said can't wait. F said lets go to bed and dream about going home together. I said ok.
I'm sure you do feel the same like me, sometimes. And it's always so lucky that there will be people who came and talk to you even though you never want to talk to them, to make you feel better, to make you smile again.
So smile at the sweet summer stories. Smile.
p.s: A very important person told me, think big, think different. heh, just do our best ba.
9 comments:
literally can smell summer... smells a little like orange opened up in the middle actually.
am i the one with ponytail? fi with long hair, and why your clothes the simplest one! and yy is the tallest?
keep that cos we're making a shirt :) i don't think i've ever seen anyone wearing a class shirt/society shirt with big pregnant belly/during confinement period before. how cute would we be?!?! ours only four of us teem leh!!! heehee yeala that one a bit far but still!
ok smile, and don't scold me please. ok?
Haha...
jacob: haa.. u don't know what to write isit..
bern: i'll draw a new one! i wanted to say sth but sigh, i cant rmb. i think talk face to face better. ooh, and we seldom comment on each other's blog.. and i was very :) to see ur comment. heh
btw, lee yee yuan, u have a blog too? i also wanted to tell u sth but i cant rmb either. :S
Wahlau!!! Can't remember? Haha... Tell me when you can remember... or could that be sth *not to be told in public*...
Thought of blogging as well... but after considering the potential profound negative impacts it might have on readers, I think it is best not to have it lor...
HAHA!! don't worry it's not sth not to be told in public and have you decided to go back to msia for winter? i'm going back earlier! 18 may~<3
and yes everything has pros and cons hmmm get one coz i want updates from you! hahaa..
i can't remember ba.. my whole brain is filled with bacteria and drug names.. and i keep forgetting the previous ones when i'm reading the second page.
That is so cool that you are going back early... Heard from Jing Fern that there will be a reunion party awaits...
Haha... About the blogging, I feel uneasy about it... After all, I like secrets (although secrets are meant to be revealed some days, maybe to the right one).
Perhaps email would be a much better tool in defending personal privacy... Weirdo, am I?
Btw, be safe and have fun during your Amsterdam trip. :)
I'm home~!! nope, you are not a weirdo because i'll feel that way too sometimes. But this is my choice of keeping my family and you all up to dates lor.
are you going back in july then?
Haha... May that be a secret too, which will only be revealed in July!
About blogging, perhaps in coming future... but it will be a bit more global...
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